Scan day today

We went to the clinic today for the first scan to see how my follicles and uterus lining are growing!

So far we have 3 follicles on the left measuring 8, 9 and 9 mm and 6 follicles on the right measuring 9, 10, 11, 11, 12 and 13mm which is a good start as we have another week of stimming to do. My lining has grown to 7.8mm which is also good as it needs to be thicker than 8mm.

I've noticed a few side effects but nothing major so far, it seems much easier this time although we have only been doing this a week and I'm expecting next week to get worse.

I think this first week has been different to last time as I know what to expect so I'm not quite so excited by it all. I'm also more nervous to some degree as I am still upset that it didn't work first time and this is going to stick in the back of my mind throughout the treatment.

I'm not getting stressed as such, but I do know that when it comes to egg collection day next Friday I will be scared of the results, much more so than last time. When we did this in June I was expecting to get a good number of eggs, around 12 - and we only got 5 as I ovulated early - I guess there is a part of me that is terrified this will happen again, I'm not quite sure how I will cope if it does, but we will get through it.

Pat is going home tomorrow :( I'm not looking forward to this as we have had a great time over the last 10 days and it has really helped me get through the first week without really thinking about it. I like this as in some ways it's my way of coping. I'm a bit impatient and I hate just sitting around waiting for things to happen, so being busy has been a blessing. I will also miss Pat when she goes as we are such good friends and as she lives in Maryland (USA) I don't get to see her as often as 'd like - we do our best to get together at least once a year and if we can visit each others houses (or meet somewhere like Vegas!) twice. I'm still waiting for someone to invent a teleportation device so I can pop over for coffee whenever I feel like it!