Maybe Baby? Not this time :(

We did our official and final test this morning, not sure why really as we already knew the result, but you have to just in case.

Sadly - this IVF has not worked. Again.

I don't know what else to say except our next go will have to wait until February of next year now - another six months down the line and another £3000 to save up and to add to this ever increasing bill. So far we have now spent £18,000 in the UK and £15,000 in the US (although after six goes we could get £10,000 back if it doesn't work). Giving a grand total so far of £33,000.

I'm sure some people reading this will be thinking, Oh my God that's a lot of money to throw at this - well, yes it is. But it is the ONLY way we will be able to parent a child that is genetically mine and my husbands, and that means the world to us.

We will not give up - as long as we are both able to earn money to pay for this, we shall strive to achieve our goal.

Life is full of brick walls that we all hit from time to time. But the brick walls are there for a reason - they are not there to keep us out, they are there to show how much we want something, and they are there to stop the people who don't want it badly enough.

I want this badly enough that those brick walls will not stop me. I am not a quitter.

I would also like to Thank everyone who has helped us out again this time, without the support of our friends and family, this would not even be possible.

So to my Mother- and Father-in-law who took two weeks out to come and look after our three cats while we were away. Thank You.

And also to Pat and Walt, who once again put me up for five weeks, drove me to the clinic most days, fed me and helped out wherever they could. Thank You.