Up down, up down, why can't this just be easy for us?
I've had more bleeding this morning, nothing major but also a little pain so I'm taking it easy today. No point in rushing to the EPU again as we are in for a scan on Monday and there is nothing that we could do anyway.
It still feels like there is such a long way to go until they are here safely, even though we are almost at 12 weeks - it's only really 1/3 of the way there and still got 12 more weeks to go before the hospitals will see them as viable.
It's hard enough as it is to get pregnant, but being pregnant is like daily torture sometimes, It's hard not to be a little scared, or anxious - but what will be will be, and there is nothing I can do to change this, so I just have to deal with it and be strong.
I sometimes wonder where I get my strength from, after everything we have already dealt with, I should be a total wreck, but the thought of being a parent keeps me going, and also a wonderful husband.
I just wish the bleeding would go away and stop me from having to worry about it all the time. Please.