We got to see him one last time

Another difficult day today as we went up to the funeral directors to see baby Matthew for the last time. We took with us the little t-shirt and hat, as well as the little miniture teddy that we bought for him yesterday.

When we arrived, we were shown into the chapel and told to take as much time as we needed. When we walked in we saw a foot long coffin with a brass plaque on the top that read

Baby Matthew Russell
Died
January 22nd 2007

It broke our hearts to see this and we both found it quite difficult to not cry. But we remained strong and removed the lid so that we could wrap him in his little tshirt and put his hat on.

He was just like he was the other day when we saw him, perfect in every way, just tiny. The hat actually fit him just right (we thought it would be too big), but the tshirt which was for a preemie baby was too big so we simply laid it over him and tucked him in.

After wrapping the little blanket back around him, we placed him gently back in his coffin and gave him his teddy before we said farewell. Tomorrow we will go to the crem and say our final goodbye.

As we mentioned yesterday we have chosen 2 songs to play tomorrow as we are not having anyone say anything, I thought it would be nice to put the tracks up here so that you can hear them if you don't know them.

I'm also going to post the lyrics as it's the words that mean so much to us both.

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Track one will be played as we bring Matthew into the crematorium.

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Guns N' Roses - Don't cry

Talk to me softly
There is something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin is changin' inside you
And don't you know


Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight


Give me a whisper
And give me a sign
Give me a kiss before you
tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinkin' of you
And the times we had...baby


And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight


And please remember that I never lied
And please remember
how I felt inside now honey
You gotta make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby


And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight

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Track 2 will be played as we sit and reflect, a time to remember and say goodbye.

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Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?