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Thursday, 18 October 2007

How can I be so unlucky?

Well I'm just home from the hospital and on my way up to bed for more rest as I'm incredibly sore in the tummy area, I have 3 lovely cuts on my tummy, one in my belly button (which will form scar number 6!) one about three inches to the right (looking down!) and one about 3 inches below my belly button, where they went in to do this op.

It's been quite a harrowing 24 hours, and I'm exhausted so I'm going to save all the gory details until tomorrow when I'm thinking straight and able to sit up for more than 5 mins without hurting.

I just can't believe that we could have such bad luck though - again. This has been my 5th pregnancy and my 5th loss. Most of which were just bad luck.

1st was a miscarriage in January 2004 - unlucky but happens to 50% of pregnancies esp the first pregnancy, so almost to be expected.

2nd was ectopic in January 2005 when I lost the right tube - just damn unlucky

3rd was also ectopic in September 2005, this time I lost the left tube also bloody unlucky

4th was Matthew when I suffered with premature labour at 22 weeks in January 2007, we still don't really know the cause of this so I can once again put this down to bad luck

and now the 5th. Once again ectopic, stuck in the remnants of my right tube in October 2007.

I hope I have now used up a lifetime of back luck and that somehow, we can make it to number 6 and get through the whole 9 months without bleeding, ectopic, waters breaking or miscarriage.

I just wish someone could tell me what I have to do in order to make this happen.

5 comments:

Theresa said...

Thinking of you and Chris. So sorry. Love Theresa x

pat moore said...

it all seems so very unfair.

try to get some rest. take care of each other as you always do. even as my heart breaks for you i know how strong and determined you are. there is nothing in the world you and chris can't get through together. that in itself is a rare and beautiful thing.

we love you...Pat & Walt

Hekateris said...

I'm so, so sorry.

Tina said...

I am so sorry... Wishing you some peace as you recover from this loss.

lori said...

i'm so very sorry for your loss and all that you've been through.

wishing you peace and healing,
-lori