It's been a tough few days, I've been mostly dealing with the physical pain that I seem to be suffering with this time, I've had this before so you would think that I'd know what to expect, but from my experience every laparascopic surgery is different, and this one was painful.
The whole of my tummy area last night was wracked with pain for about half an hour last night which was very uncomfortable, and also the day after I got home from the hospital was shear agony all day. But it is getting better each day and I'm hoping I can get back to normal fairly quickly.
I'm also still reeling from the shock of it all, This time last week I was getting excited about whether we would see one of two babies on the screen at our first scan. That session left me feeling confused and sure that my luck was going to play a part and that this was going to be ectopic as we couldn't see any babies on the screen at all.
On Wednesday we went back and our worst fears were confirmed, when Linsey said to me it definitely looks ectopic as it's outside the uterus I could have died on the spot.
It's hard to come to terms with it, knowing that there is a baby growing but it's just 2 cm in the wrong place, which means someone is going to cut me open and rip it out.
Within an hour we were at Frimly Accident and Emergency as this was the fastest way to get me admitted, I had a letter to take with me and Mr Riddle had phoned ahead to tell them to expect me, I'm sure this got me through a lot faster as we only seemed to wait in A&E for about 20 minutes in total, when the room was packed!
Within 3 hours I was dressed in a lovely gown, with those sexy stockings that stop you getting thrombosis and getting the final talk from the anaesthetist.
I don't remember much after that as I was wheeled down to the theatre and knocked out pretty fast.
I do know that they safely removed the pregnancy and sealed that tube up as close to the uterus as possible, and while they were in there they also put a clip on the other tube in order to bring that as close as possible too, this is to limit the chances of this happening in the future - as yes I will always be a high risk candidate for an ectopic pregnancy.
I was allowed home on the Friday where I have pretty much stayed since then as it hurts too much to do anything else right now.
My mum is coming home on Wednesday and I have friends coming from the US to stay from Thursday of this week, so I'm looking forward to that. I will be taking some time out and getting my head around the fact that once again I'm not pregnant.